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Love

Tonight, we walked to Arbat St. I have no photos of the actual events on Arbat… I was busy baby wrangling, but maybe I’ll post some of my mom’s photos later. But, we stopped for dinner.

Gus is great when it comes to sitting down. He just needs some food to nibble on and a bottle full of juice/water and he’s good to go.
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Cuddling and other PDA are welcome when you are on a dinner date with Gus.

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Yes, we’re in love.

Maybe we’re just in the honeymoon phase, or maybe this kid is just amazing, but things really have been that simple so far.

Day 2

Actually, I’ll finish with Day 1 first… we all napped and when we got up, we tried to decide what to do for dinner. We decided to be very adventurous and go to… Chili’s. It was right across the street, we knew the prices and that it was kid-friendly.

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Gus was great. He ate some more fruit snacks while we waited… he tried everything he was offered once the food arrived. He doesn’t seem to be too fond of food which is hot or cold.

Like naptime, bed time was not so fun.
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My mom wanted to take a photo of him in his pajamas, and this is what she got.

But, he took his bottle pretty quickly, and I put on some Russian lullabies and the iTunes visualizer. He drank every last drop that was in his bottle, then he just watched the computer and let me cuddle with him as he fell asleep.

He is pretty funny when he wakes up. He just wants to play on the bed for awhile, not too ready to get up. He loves to be cuddled and kissed and tickled.  But, we had to get up sometime. He had his medical for the embassy today.

Again, we were awesome in the car. But the medical… yuck. It was very short and easy, but we both weren’t fans of the doctor. Gus called it first, he started screaming as soon as the doctor touched him. My annoyance began when the doctor started telling me how he is a drama queen, a little actor, and how I shouldn’t pick him up when he cries or I’ll be carrying him until he’s 25. Thanks, he has barely cried until you came near him!

That appointment set us up for being done with the morning. We got back and we were ready to nap. Well, not ready, but needed to nap. But, that was not fun. It took awhile, but eventually, he laid down. It turns out he is a thumb-sucker as he falls asleep.

We napped for about 3.5 hours! And we felt so much better.
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We played on the bed for awhile again. He wanted to play with this book, but insisted on sitting on it to play with it.

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Now, we are just relaxing. Apparently, it may storm, so we are waiting that out.

Our first hours together… forever

I woke up and looked at my phone… 9:30pm. I looked out the window and saw this…

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The sun is setting… huh, I thought I had slept more than that.  Until I opened up my computer and realized it was actually 5:30am, and I had never changed the time on my phone.

3 hours until my facilitator picked us up! Yeahh!

We had some stops to make on the way– to pick up diapers, and food for him, but soon enough, we were there!

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Walking into the orphanage.

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With my boy! Facilitator and orphanage director in the background.

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Breaking free!

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In the car.

He is awesome. He started to cry when I first took him from his caregiver, but he calmed down when everyone talked to him in Russian. In the car, he just relaxed and looked out the window. I kissed him, and he leaned in for more. Every so often, he’d snuggle his head into my shoulder, for just a few seconds, then sit back up to look out the window. I really expected him to be terrified by this whole experience, and instead, he seemed ready, like he knew we were coming for him. Thank you to those of you who have been praying that he would be ready for this day.

I left him with my mom while I went in to apply for his passport, and he got upset when I left him. Igor, our wonderful driver, talked to him and he calmed down right away. When I got back out, a few minutes later, they were sitting in the backseat and he was playing.

We got back to the apartment and he was just fascinated. At first, he was following me, watching me, but he relaxed about that, and just explored. He is easily entertained… potted plants are fun, mirrors are a good time, too. Any unique textures which he can run his fingers over are pretty cool.

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Stacking cups with Lola.

I brought some Teensy Fruits for him… they’re like fruit snacks for toddlers. He loved them, and we practiced signing “more”… want to see?

Now, he’s sleeping next to me. We had some big tears over laying down for a nap. It is not surprising… sleeping makes you vulnerable. Lena was the same way. I put on my CD of Russian lullabies, no help. I tried holding him, nope, laid him down on the pillow, definite nope. I went to go grab his milk, thinking maybe that would help. When I came back, he was sitting up, screaming even more, but when I sat down with him, he pushed the milk away, but he put his head up against my leg and fell asleep pretty quickly.

It’s amazing… he has been so cautious with Aaron and me at our visits, that I expected today would be a disaster with lots of tears, fear and anger. But, he just keeps reminding me how badly babies need a mama and need a family, need a life beyond an orphanage. He is just soaking it all in. I love this kid.

Gus’s city

We are here in Gus’s city. Today is a free day, so we just walked around a bit. I showed my mom Arbat St. and New Arbat St. That’s about it. We are exhausted. I set a goal of staying up until 7pm, to combat jetlag, and I’m not sure we’ll make it there.

Our facilitator and driver pick us up at 8:30 am tomorrow. Alla is taking us to the grocery store, to help us buy food for Gus, then we will go pick him up!!! I am guessing we’ll pick him up around 10am, which is 1am Central time.

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The view from our apartment (on the 22nd floor).
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View of New Arbat from ou Apartment.

Whoa

My dear little man,

I had a moment of panic tonight… actually, I won’t lie, I’ve been panicking the last few days. What business do we have adding a third child to our family when I am so stressed right now, as a family of 4? Fortunately, I have a dear friend who spoke truth to me and a God who can put my heart right again.

After I was praying tonight, I was flipping through my prayer journal for a particular verse, but before I could get there, I found your list of medical diagnoses. It’s the only page of my prayer journal I have used for anything but prayer; I wrote them down when I was trying to memorize complex medical terms for court, with no other paper on hand.

I had forgotten. I had forgotten all of those labels someone has attached to you, all the things “wrong” with you. Big scary words– even though everything on that list is harmless, they still label you with them. But, I had forgotten about your convergent squint and delay of motor and pre-speech development and all the other terms.

To me, you are just my baby boy, Gus, August Andrey, loved, amazing, ours. The child of two parents who adore you. A child of God. 

That’s how I see you, that’s how my heart knows you.

I learned so much from you in that moment.

In a world, where I see all the things wrong with me, all of my failures, all of the ways that I’ll never be enough, all of the labels I’ve given myself and let others give me, all of the burdens I gather up daily…

that’s not how our God sees me. No, He doesn’t first look to my labels of what’s wrong with me. He doesn’t see me as messy, or fat, or… no, He loves me, like I love you. He knows me as His child, like I know you as mine.

Whoa.

Love,

your mama

Just 5 days left and then forever together.

 

P.S. That verse I was looking for?

But He said to me,

“My grace is sufficient for you,

for my power is made perfect in weakness.”

Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses,

so that Christ’s power may rest on me.

2 Corinthians 12:9